ANONYME PSEUDONYME OMNIPRÄSENZ

AN ARTISTS REALITY

“There is war between the rich and poor, a war between the man and the woman. There is a war between the ones who say there is a war and the ones who say that there isn´t.”

Leonard Cohen, 1973

War of consciousness and frequencies…2020

On a day in march 2020- when the corona requirements started all over the world- I had a vision:

In one moment races and borders, rich and poor, male and female, all categories of former division were suddenly bygone. 

I saw the world being divided into two groups of people:

“Humanists” and “Transhumanists”.

People who respect nature and personal responsibility of humankind and thus are rooted on and in unison with our planet earth, its natural laws and its residents and people who mistrust humanity and nature so much that they would rather leave this planet behind and give all responsibility to machines and techniques that by time will more and more adapt and overcome humankind.

Possibly people are devided by the fact that some feel very deeply and others resist it for whatever reason. I do not judge it. I wish they could speak their truth, learn from another and find a solution that enables humankind to find a way to connect all human abilities in order to enter a bright future.

Back to the vision:

In one single moment relationships, friendships and families all over this world were tested. People were forced to deeply examine their perception and choose in between trust and control. To their astonishment very often they had to face that the ones they love most had chosen the other side.

After some time the virus had killed emotional bounds all around the world and this virus I talk about was not one that came from nature.

It was programmed by some people in order to lower frequencies, to spread fear, depression, confusion and separation.

Suddenly it was almost equal where on this planet someone lived. In a positive sense after all those wars about ownership, ego and borders we could sense that we actually are a collective. In a negative sense we were collectively scared by something that was unknown and totally out of control.

The fear was masked the fear of physical death by a virus. But the death of social cohesion transformed the fear into a virus causing the literal death of souls and humanness.

The more people got infected by fear the more they were disposed to leave the light and get used to living in the shadows. By time they were freely willing to exchange freedom for an illusionary security.

As we all know life always ends with death. Fear is never a good advisor but it is historically, socially and psychologically well known and approved in terms of spreading confusion and gaining power over people.

The programmed virus had been installed and had been growing decades before in a neoliberal and capitalistic system while most of the people were working hard on affording a life or finding a work-life balance and a vanishing tiny amount of people who made enormous profits at their, their children’s and the whole planet’s expense.

At that time people were trained to believe in any kind of statistics but for whatever reason this simple bill seemed to be too simple to believe, to relate to or to make a change.

Where we are now is where this system has led us.

There is a positive message to all of this : Every system failed so far.

We as human beings are no computers and even if we would like to define ourselves as machines: 

We are programmed by our own minds and in our hearts and honest inner wisdom we know: There are rules that exist despite and above all those that have ever been made by humans. They are called the principles of nature and we live because of and within these. Always. 

Since thousands of years people have respected and known the hermetic laws, for example the law of resonance. If we continue or now decide to respect these we will find trust, love, abundance and peace.  

Nature pursuits balance. And all living beings are part of nature. We cannot separate ourselves from it. If we ruin our planet or other beings we ruin our own system. Inwardly and outwardly. As the outside mirrors the inside. As above so below. As in atoms so in all. 

It is time to overcome fear. It is time to get rid of all masks. It is time to start feeling and stop overthinking. It is time to act. With our minds and hearts balanced. It is time to ask our soul why it has chosen to come here in this time and the answer will be: we came to choose and live love. Each of us is able to do so. 

Love is the only almighty power on this wonderful planet Earth.

It is a real good medicine for a healthy life.

And it will change ALL.

AFTER POINT OBFUSATION

AN ARTISTS REALITY, VISION

I have to admit: In the past weeks my brain did not work properly. I was in a permanent state of obfusation. Although I have not watched television for over 20 years and although I mostly restrict myself from reading the news (as I am hypersensitive and often not able to do anything else but cry afterwards) there was no way of not being involved in all those feelings and thoughts coming from everywhere and there was no way that I was even getting near to a clear vision. And I feel that this is a worldwide and collective phenomena.

I will not talk about the things that are in the newspapers, socialmediaplatforms and television. I will talk about what comes from my heart and inner vision as this is the only thing I can trust and speak about without doubting or overquestioning it permanently.

For many weeks people around the planet were forced to stay at home. It does not matter what each of us struggled with the most. Important is that the struggle is something we learn from as human beings.

And what we learned will change the way we are and act.

I have learned that the time we live in is a time of major change and that this major change is dependent on every tiny feeling each of us is going through and each little thought we are sending out.

I feel that corona and the time before has led to a collective breakdown of trust.

I will not blame a system, a newspaper or any person. As I said: this is collective and not only because of corona and because the lockdown was worldwide.

Indeed this is a universal thing. For thousands of years humans have exploited not only the planet in a material sense but also in a nonmaterial sense. As everything on earth develops in thriving fractal spirals the capitalistic system is just a mirror for where we are now.

Since I was a school kid politicians, economists and scientists have been talking about the need to educate better, to operate economically, to think and act globally. All of us have been talking about the importance of humanity, equality, healthcare, green business solutions, sustainability, empathy. Many of us have learned breathing techniques, yoga, embodiment, etc…and let´s be honest- many of us in this western world have experienced major psychological or physical breakdowns in the past ten years. Because we are what we consume.

We have overloaded our inner and outer system and still we have consciously and subconsciously tried to keep it going. And as Mother Earth is just as us a living and feeling being-we have done the same to her. She has started a little moaning but never did she get as angry as our folks.

Many people and organisations have tried to make a change and still could not stop the “almighty monetary” system from steeling our health, hearts and souls.

Now here we are.

This is our time.

And we need to see it as a chance.

This is the change we have been waiting for and talking about.

This is the time to take responsibility and to see clearly.

This is the time to feel and speak our inner truth.

It is time to do the same that our planet is doing at the moment.

It is time to take time for all things we did not have the time for before:

Remember.

Rest.

Regenerate.

Rethink.

Rewind and Restore.

Renew.

R E A L I Z E

(all the things that are actually already here as we have been reading, talking and workshopping about them for many many years)

For example:

Look in the mirror.

Question yourself what you are here for.

Leave your bubble.

Be true.

Nourish your feelings.

Open your heart.

Cry.

But then. BE HAPPY!

We don´t need more hardship.

We need HEARTship.

Try something you haven´t done before.

Do not step in footsteps for a change.

Ask your fear where it exactly comes from.

Ask your beloved ones what they exactly wish for.

Change patterns you do not like.

Ask yourself: How does my future look like?

What can I do to make it happen?

Do not read or listen and do not watch television

(and even if it´s just for an hour, a day or a week)

I am sure that this is the time to learn individually.

Everyone will learn for the self.

Knowledge and peace will come from within.

And if you need help – don´t be ashamed.

ASK.

This is our time.

This is the time that questions and teaches how to be human again.

This is a time that we and our planet were wishing for.

It is a good time.

And it depends on YOU.

ACTUAL PANDEMIC ODDITY

AN ARTISTS REALITY

Everyday I try to unlock perplexity. And everyday I find even more confusing news and impressions. I am trying to put the puzzle pieces together but actually –  I am speechless…about the oddity of this situation, about the spreading conformity of free persons and about the pondering silence of well-educated people.

By now all of you know I am an artist and a healer. By now none of the things I do are any kind of systemically relevant. No more need for culture and no more need for alternative methods that both have been healing and nurturing humankind for thousands of years…I could start to feel small and senseless but actually I feel I have been waiting for this moment ever since I chose to come on this planet for another round of adventure.

So : Even though I feel confused I will try to say some things as I miss reading them from others.

What is happening these days is full of potential but I see mostly helpless people. And of course many that are clamping…to their power, to their ego, to their money, to …  fear? however…

I feel everyone that respects democracy is responsable to question, to overthink and to speak their truth. I guess if we do not we must accept we will not be allowed to in the future.

They call this Corona Crisis. I like to call it the Crisis of Crest. It sounds like a movie, it suggests some equivocal humor or spiritual option of interpretation and it makes everyone feel much more positive right away. I like to see people smiling and I see no reason to wear a mask for immaterial output.

I do admit I feel subliminal things of all  kinds happening these days and the obvious output rather makes me feel de-pressed, but as I start to write again I am very aware that noone needs any more negative thoughts.

I know that the only way to stay healthy as a human being is to stay positive and finally take over responsability for our own lives and for our planet.

I feel this Crisis is here to overcome things that are not needed any longer. So instead of adapting to panic  let´s welcome the opportunity of transformation.

ABRAXAS PAINFUL OKTAGON

AN ARTISTS REALITY, ART LIFE, INSIGHT
Moon

Kefalonia is not an Island.

She is a person.

Named after Cephalus.

This is what she looks like and this is what she feels like.

She is a wild and angry person and not only that…

She is transforming love and pain constantly.

Last year I came here to speak to the Ocean and its inhabitants, mainly the dolphins and turtles that I hoped could read my watery letters which I sent every single day. I wanted them, as in former times, to come back and show up at the coasts of this island, so people would be reminded how beautiful these related creatures are and might learn to appreciate instead of harming them.

In the end, I did not see a single dolphin, BUT: Finally we heard them singing at night.

My favourite beach is called Avythos. As it is the closest I can walk there easily. But also I fell in love with its wild beauty and the view it shares on Theos Island.

This beach changes depending on the weather and even each single day and time.

Last year at this time, the beach was full of stones. With ist bizzare huge rocks that had been thrown into the sea by earthquakes, it had this mysterious atmosphere of a Stone Desert right by the Sea.

I was so happy to observe that turtles would come there at night to secretely leave their eggs on Avythos which were then protected by the kefalonian people.

This year I find my beach full of sand, I cannot find my precious stones of which I was intending to once again built an energy rising Spiral for my project.

I start to clean the beach instead. What I find are tonnes of plastic, iron, styropor, cans.

It becomes more depressing when you start collecting shoes, doll arms, barbed wire and clothes and in the end, when you dig deeper, you finally recognise that about half of the sand exists of tiny partcicles of human-made poison and start realizing that we carry these particles, too. That´s probably why we do not even dare to think about our ocean´s inhabitants any more. More than 90 % are gone anyway.

Not to think about this is a crime, though. It is murder. We are killing constantly.

I cannot carry all this. It is a single beach and I would need a lorry. So I will have to play Sisyphos, collect it and every time I get there carry it closer to civilization hoping some people will open their eyes and hearts and help. But even if I do…

What this garbage tells you …

…a sensitive being can hardly bare.

Last year Avythos was full of turtle nests.

Two days ago I did not find ONE.

I found something else.

A huge dead Loggerhead.

She had made it to this beach for decades

and this time she had died when giving birth.

The Island and my heart suffer from many tiny earthquakes.

My dolphin friends will not come again.

Together with the sand and this turtle they tell you the story of humans drilling for oil.

They are selling their souls and they are digging their own children´s graves.

Kefalonia is not an Island.

She is a wild and angry person and not only that…

These days she is sad.

And I am crying with her as I am a tiny part of this.

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ALLOW PECULIAR OBSTACLES

ABUNDANT PEACEFUL OUTERSYSTEM, AN ARTISTS REALITY, DREAM DIARIES, VISION

NOW.

In the dream I met an eagle. Maybe the eagle was the old goddess Athene. Maybe not.

Reality let me find Homer´s Odysssee and I had the feeling Athene is calling me to her Island.

Trusting this intuition, I have received trust and help from people I met on this Island to manifest the project that came through subconscience to reality.

When I left the Island Sophia gave me a key to the Ionion Center and said:

„You have found a second home. Make a plan, come back and bring people that are like you.“

Thinking about it now I realize that Kefalonia could be my Ithaka and Sophia could be my Athene. After offering me all her affection and protection through a whole magical summer, she is giving me her total trust and a key to her house that was built ten years ago upon her vision.

In order to use this key in the future I have to study and open up myself even more. I need to ask: „Who am I?“ to find people that are „like me“. For me this is quite a task to take as I am very shy. When I left the Ocean, I found a carapace -bone of a loggerhead Turtle. If this is another key given to me as a metaphor I might interpret it as:

„ I am an Artist. I have a gift that makes me feel rich and feeds people with questions about our world everytime I use it. There are many human beings that have influenced my art by their thoughts as I read many books, I look at Art, I listen to People´s Music and words for finding Inspiration. Many of those human beings are not living in this world and in this time, but many of them are here and I have never dared to deeply exchange thoughts with them. I have not been able to show them respect and gratitude for the impact they have on the World but also on my work and thus my life. I feel the need to do so. So I need to leave behind my carapace I have been hiding in for a long time and step over self-restrictive borders.

I feel now is the time not only for fulfilling a personal task but for making friends, for offering the ones we feel related to affection and protection, tell them that they are the ones that protect ourselves … maybe we could unite our powers and hold tight in this state of total confusion…and cherish some others and the world surrounding us with love and gratitude.

According to this the Atomic Platonic Orchestra is like a life-game. Playing it together becomes the symbolic key to make use of the real key.

At this moment of questioning my very honest inner and outer state: I am back to Berlin, working on adapting to the city again without forgetting nature is in me. I am surrounded by inner and outer fog. Still, I am often dreaming of the Ocean. It is grey, dark and wild, but still I can never resist to go in the water. Sometimes I see a dolphin coming out of the depth, showing up shortly before disappearing again… I hope somenight or someday it will come over and communicate.

ABUNDANT PEACEFUL OUTERSYSTEM

ABUNDANT PEACEFUL OUTERSYSTEM, AN ARTISTS REALITY, ART LIFE
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June to September. 2016

I am in Kefalonia.

My senses are wide open.

This island is communicating a lot.

I am dreaming, feeling, hearing, seeing, experiencing a lot.

I am corresponding to the Ocean and the Ocean is corresponding to me. Every single day.

I am reconnecting to Nature. I am hardly spending money. I am out of any system.

I was sent here by universe and I am grateful and happy in dignity.

I have met many brothers and sisters in heart and soul.

I am in Love.

I am in Peace.

I create.

I thrive.

I trust.

I give.

I receive.

I am Nature.

My body is the Earth.

My soul is the Universe.

My thoughts are the Space.

AMPLIFY PERSONAL OTHERNESS

AN ARTISTS REALITY, INSIGHT

Summer 2014

In the middle of Berlin Neukölln I wake up in the early morning as I hear a knock on my window. When I open the curtain I look straight into the eyes of a duck. It is directly facing me looking as if it had something important to tell. After a while the male duck disappears with his wife in the skies and I go back to sleep after wondering about that this was not a dream.

Old Shamans tell: „If a duck appears, you should think about the people you surround yourself with and ask if you might be isolating yourself too much.“. Whatever these Shamans tell… A few weeks later I have decided to quit isolation, to not worry about money any more and to not care about things or people´s opinions that make me doubt this decision. I have started to think and research about Water as everything floats and I have never had any moneyproblems since then.

ANGEL PASSES OVER

AN ARTISTS REALITY, ART LIFE, INSIGHT

Summer 2012

I have just finished an installation including a drawing on the wall repetiting one of Hölderlin ́s sentences „There live sun and air and earth and their children extraneous around one another, these lonesomes, as if they didn ́t belong each other.” The wall is facing some stacks of handtorn empty papersheets that were filled by time and thought and include old books with titles that could tell everything and nothing (such as „Beauty“, „Philosophy“, „Greek“, „Nostradamus“, „Healing Methods“…) but won ́t help against the feeling that Hölderlin was having more than 200 years before me having it.

After a few months of working and thinking in isolation I sit down and light a candle. At 00:00 o a huge bat comes flying through my atelier window. It surrounds the installation, it is a mystical moment, first thrilling and then calming, adoring this creature flying in perfect circles. At 00:05 it leaves through the window again. The next day one of the stacks –Philosophy- has fallen apart. What could this tell? Is this my art falling apart? Is it Philosophy falling apart? Is it my world falling apart?

I don ́t know. I have many questions. I have no answers. However, one year after the bat, I quit my old life by leaving everything behind that I had tried to believe in. I started to learn how to convert energy.

I read about power animals two years later. Old Shamans believe: If a bat comes into your life, it will change your thinking and question the life you are living right now.

AND PATIENTLY OPEN

AN ARTISTS REALITY

°°°°WHIRL°°°°

Reason  °8°  Intuition.

I do not believe in anything. I guess that every being has his own way of understanding, seeing and behaving in order to live. I guess that if ten people receive one piece of truth (let it be music, fine art, literature, philosophy…whatever is created by any sensitive and thinking soul) will see, read, hear, interpret, believe and produce something different depending on their character, life experience and personal state of mind.

Intuition and Mind… Dream and Reality…

Do they determine each other in an infinite ongoing process?

ASSUME PURITY OBSOLETE

AN ARTISTS REALITY

°°°WORTH°°°

This World we live in is based on categories, definitions and intellect, on the things we receive by our eyes and reason, on time, career and money as I perceive it. My scala of worth could be turned 180 degrees and it could fit in this system. I know that I am not the only one feeling sad about this. Many of us are tired and feeling empty. Fear and anger, control and greed, machines and calculated numbers are the powers that rule our inner and outer world, that manipulate us, that exploit the planet and the creatures living on it day by day. This system is even reaching out to Universe I am afraid.  I am not afraid of terror, of aliens, of the atomic bomb, the climate change or a financial crisis. I am afraid of humans that are lacking humanity and their active and passive deeds concerning our whole planetary system.

ABIDE PERSEVERE ORIGINALITY

ABUNDANT PEACEFUL OUTERSYSTEM, AN ARTISTS REALITY, VISION

°°WORLD°°

As a child I was a spiritual and thoughtful being that just couldn´t get rid of the feeling that it was thrown on a planet it does not belong to. From the age of one I was told by familymembers and doctors that I am almost blind. Influenced by this I started thinking that I might see and perceive this world differently than other people. I was very good in talking to animals and trees, the sky, the seas, nature itself and even things that do not exist in a rational Believe System. When it came to talking to people I was the opposite. I couldn´t even understand what they are thinking and talking about. I would be outside in nature or inside my room creating my own little world and phantasies in peace or I would argue with others and tell all the people to leave me alone. I am glad that I have grown a bit and become more social but actually I am still the same. My whole life as an artist has been created upon this.

I am trying to ask questions about this society comparing it to ancient societies. I never find any answers but what I find is that the ideas our world system is based on are not treating the natural system of this planet and its creatures very kindly.

I am attracted to the ideas of the old egyptians and greek philosophers, some thoughts of the romantic writers of the 18th century, some old shamans and myths… I find some soulmates in the Arts, in Philosophy and Poetry, in Music, but asked why I am doing art and how I would describe it, never I find a definition about what exactly it is. I just feel the urgent need to do so. Maybe I am searching intuitively to live a life outside of any Believe System and I am learning more.

Systems have always failed and people have always found solutions in order to step forward and create something else. No truth remains true forever. History is being told differently in different times and different countries. If some old thinkers we like to quote would live nowadays I believe they would think about other things, create something according to this period of time and reality, based on the experiences they made in this society and state of mind. Nevertheless, their thoughts are still alive, feeding and nurturing our thoughts and even some people´s daily lives.

ATLANTIS POWER OPAQUE

AN ARTISTS REALITY, INSIGHT

°WATER°

From the beginning of my life I was drawn to water. I did not live by the Ocean, neither were many lakes and rivers around the little village I grew up in. Even though I was dreaming of it permanently. I remember a period in my early childhood, when I had a dream every night. I was standing on a cliff staring at the Ocean. I would raise my hands, jump down, fly slowly, dive deep in, feel great, feel home, feel alive, without any fear… and everytime I tried to reach the surface again I would wake up. Everyday I found myself lying on the floor next to my bed.

When I was sixteen I wanted to become an Ocean Biologist but I soon found out that the ways I learn are different to all the ways you will be educated at any school or in any system.

Being with the Ocean will heal my body and clear my soul right away. I feel without time, without space and without any borders in thinking and corresponding.

When I have to leave it, my soul becomes foggy, I cannot think clearly and noise, information overflow, machines and many people make me escape to my own little world in my room again.

Our World and our Body is mostly out of water. Leonardo da Vinci says „the Old believe that a human is an earth in small.“ Heraklit says „everything floats“. Other humans have changed the waterflow on earth. They have cut its natural ways and are permanently controlling other energies, too. We all shall be careful about controlling our own energies and be prepared not to also cut our own veines or the flow of thoughts.

I am posing the question: If water can understand music and words based on the research of Masaru Emoto (who made photographs of frozen Water Crystals to show that water coming from a spring or listening to Bach´s Music would form a perfect crystal whereas Water influenced by Heavy Metal Music or coming out of the tab forms a destroyed Crystal)… if water is information and we are creators of information or even information ourselves… Could water read our minds, our thoughts and what if…?